Legal to enter France...

As I walked up to my unit at 12+ am, after parting with jy & jh, a thought came to me:

It's really almost impossible to make someone independent or feel better by cutting off connections, unless you mean to cut off the connections forever.

to make someone feel better/independent refers to make someone not miss/think about you
cutting off connections refers to "disappearing/unreachable"

I should have realized it. It happened before, and it just kept recurring in different situations and with different people. Why did I not realize it? First time was way long ago while I was still a little girl wearing my brown uniform. That time, it was just a prolong disappearance, but luckily, we knew each other pretty well and that saved the friendship (of course, with much explanations) . Then it happened in Junior College, when me and my friend decided to encourage our very good friend to stay strong and less reliable on us/independent. We tried to reduce our sms replies, hoping that she'll try to make new friends and merge into the new environment. We thought, when we become less important to her, then can she lead a new school life. I think, she really did merge into the new environment, but we, our presences, really got flushed out of her world. Sad. Then came my exchange. He wanted to help me to, as usual, get used to my new German environment, and not be so mentally reliable on him, decided to decrease communication.. no sms replies.. no phone calls... to make things worse, I don't have Internet access. I think he did help me get used to my new environment.. however, he wasn't exactly part of it anymore.

I guess some things, once lost, is really hard to get it back. At least the first incident wasn't as bad as the others.. perhaps cos it's the one that happened th longest and has reached the "solution" stage. The other two.. perhaps not yet tackled or solved, but couldn't save anything much.

Never mind about the past, since it's already over... at least one thing for sure now.. I'll never use this method. Three times bitten, and I'm never using it, if ever, again.

12052008

As usual, today's another day spent out in town. Collected my visa and am really legal to go France. Yup, I've NOT started packing at all and I'm flying off Wednesday night. I think I've got a baggage left in Vietnam.. how to retrieve it and bring home? Hmm...

Then was shopping with mum =) Promised to be home for dinner later tonight .. haven't been eating at home much. Really.

Then was meeting with yj, yf, jy at City Hall. Decided  to dine at The Soup Spoon and I decided to try the Pumpkin Soup Bread Bowl. =) It's nice and good to eat, since I'm really in a case of bad sore throat. It's probably sign telling me that I'm falling real sick. Feverish too.. must be all the sleep debts..

As mum puts it, "you're always falling sick just before you go overseas/travel!".

Dear mummy, I don't intended that. It just always so happen that I only travel/go overseas after a stressful period aka. exams.

Met Peggy & Joon Hong at JEC macs and chatted. Didn't really chatted much with peg though.. thanks for the handy pouch. =) I love the pink & black contrast.

I must get well...

I miss you .. will email when I wake up.. cmi already..