Sometimes, all I want is to sit there and chat with you.
然后，我就觉得这样就够了．
飞逝的指针，竟一点都不再奢侈．
发现自己慢慢的在改变，是你吧？
有时满满的无奈，泪水夺眶，但静一静，也总得慢慢的释怀．
是真的在学习，是真的在进步，是真的在勇敢．还是逞强？
人生路途中，总会有迷惘的时候．
谢谢你正牵着我的手，陪伴着我．
Work seems to break the momentum to blog as frequent as before. Or is it because there are more confidential things that can no longer be shared? Many blogs get killed or shelved aside as my friends started working...this is quite an undeniable fact. Could it be that blogs were created at just a spur of moment when it was the hotest thing to have and own?
I think... it's the lost of freedom to be irresponsible to whatever we write online.
With heighten security and laws against irresponsible bloggers and the ease of googling for blogs, it does get scary. And yes, there is nothing known as a "personal" website or "personal" blog, because, once it is published online, it is not longer personal. We don't have 100% freedom of speech and whatever rubbish we spurt.. we might have to pay for it if it hurts someone or if somehow the circumstances are against you.
Scary.
Well, we can just lock up the blog and only allow friends to view, right?
Ya, that's why my pond of blogs started to dry up, without realising that I'm not that welcomed at people's blog. Sigh at my diminishing popularity. Haha.. when collegues replace friends and become the people we meet more than our parents...that's why.
I am thinking... (I shall take this thinking offline)
C'est tout.
While rushing to TransitLink Office today.. *dang* I caught sight of myself after getting out of the escalator. That girl looks familiar hor.. =D
Anyway, I had the honour to take photos with Desmond's batman-like car.. let the photos do the talking:
On Saturday, we went to Illuma.
On Sunday, we went to Illuma *again*. All because of you...
That, was Perfect Match. When I heard that, I was thinking "wei.. TCC already has a Perfect Match lo.. feels like another copycat." It's a mixture of caramel and strawberry, abit too sweet for my liking though. I still prefer TCC's Perfect Match.
I actually prefered the Lavender Latte, but, the Lavender smell & taste could have been x3 stronger. It was too light that I almost forgot Lavender was added. The Chocolate Macademia was good. Smooth, but super sinnful. The side of the cake was done with bread-like texture thingy - quite an interesting idea, but I would prefer it to be of a crunchy texture. This guy in the cowboy shirt likes the top layer of the cake.
不知不覺,it was already 5.10pm. We spent about 2 hours there chatting.. haa.. =)
People getting engaged, people getting married, people providing wedding make-up services.. how about people getting pregnant too. This shows my age.. people in my circle of friends are either there or going in or just got in.
Wait, did I just forget about people planning about marriage too?
Let me count, all those that fall under this huge category:
1. Xiexing & Bao Xian (ha.. sound like I know his wife that well.. not actually.)
2. Zijian & financee (met her once or twice but failed to remember her name.)
3. Charles & girlfriend
4. Xinyi & boyfriend
5. Yizhen & Tipin
6. Mel & husband
7. Cleo (bridal make-up service)
8. Rosalind & husband
9. Keng Wah & wife (last year, but still sound recent to me)
10. Yong Bin & girlfriend
11. Michelle Chia & husband (ha.. not a friend, but I see it on TV)
Okay, got to admit that it does make the wedding dream look dreamier & sweeter. Very romantic hor, the proposal, the wedding, the blessings received, the hong baos, the parents crying, the thank you very much for raising me up speech, the imaginative honey moon (as though no other overseas trip can be sweeter than that), the couple life without children & parents' disturbance. Then come the last point which is abit more controversial (爭議性).. children. Personally, they don't fall into the romantic category, but others do consider them as the best part, since they'll say that they are the 愛的結晶. (?! and then couples start urguing with each other over children issues.. ironic hor. where got romantic. Then the breadwinner will complain high living expanses, then bad mood, then neglect wife/husband, then quarrel, then make-up, then occasionally result in another child.. oh.. and the cycle goes on. hiak hiak hiak. Wait, did I mention the husband/wife end up loving the child more than the other half? Dots.)
Did I just make it sound like a mirage? =P
Not on purpose, just skeptic in the name of fun. Of course, even couples (not married) argues about any other things. Love the other half too much - quarrel, don't show love enough - quarrel... all types of scenarios.
Ok, I will still want to get married eines der Tag. Then I'll look back at this entry and laugh at myself and think "why did I get married?" haha.. Life.
Immer kontrovers.
Anyway, while looking at Cleo's website, I came to Chris Woon's .. I like his this photo in his site.. taken where? MRT station/Changi.. Like the 感覺.
連你都會殘忍隔絕 我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣 被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前
囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離 寂寞地盤旋
全世界都停了電 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念 卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電 全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間 有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈 像一個句點
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想了想，像似正中紅心。都是我吧。
不實際，不認清，不放棄，不吭聲。
再説吧。
總是覺得每每聚會都學到了人生哲理。
Dots.. anyway, besides the heavy fake eyelashes.. it was pretty fun to doll up in some other personality. Hope to see it soon.. =D But well, who knows, maybe they'll crop me out of the picture after half a day of hassle =(
